Hey Guys sorry thats its been so long since i've updated my journal...well here it is...I been grounded, for ditching school...i've had relationship trouble...My ex, um she had another guy in her room...yeah so was done with her...I got a letter from Whittier College, and i think im going to attend there and play football for them...and i couldn't be any happier, i lied yes i can, I am currently dating Tiffany Slagle...and if you know Selina, and hows she's dating Jon, its his Cuzin. Weird huh? But im currently grounded for coming home at 1:00am...Yeah mom wasn't to happy about that...but I hope all of you are staying outa trouble, and staying safe...well i'll talk to you guys later...

current mood: Couldn't Feel Better

So yesterday was kinda boring to start with...I mean school and all...But after school I played football for like 3 hours...And I ran from a security guard...(long story i'll tell later)...And later that night i was suppose to go hang out at my friends house...Well he was still at the mall and my boy John ask me if I wanted to go to the Steel Canyon game...So we went...and it me, Jonh and Daniel...and three chicks...  well we went into the game it was like 2 quarter...and one of the girls friends start asking me all these questions...and then they told me that i have to go to the SCHS vs. WHHS soccer game...because she'd be playing...and i was wearing my vb sweatshirt...and my numbers on it...and they were like i think shes number 10...and i showed them my number...and they were shocked...so me and daniel go outside cuz it was roasting in the gym...we comeback to get money...from John...and he says he'll go with us...and he's like "she thinks your hott..." "she  wants you to talk to her..."...and i was like wow...and so we go back in and some butts took our seats...and we had to finish watching the game...and when we were leaving...John's like "she wants you to make the first move..."...(heres where it gets weird)...i'm like "would mind if i could get your number..." amd she gives it to me...(and here's where i looked like a dumb ass)...im like "it was nice to meet you"...and SHOOK HER HAND...what is that...so as were walking away i run back and give her a hugg...then i go home and go to my friends house...well you know the rules...first one to fall alseep gets messed with...well i was the first one out...i was out around 11:50pm...but non of them knew it cuz i was hiddin...and so tylers the next out and he wakes up...and then Jon's asleep...we put the "cheese in can" all over his hair...and the tyler got it in his..Grant got it on his sweatshirt...and Chris got it in his face...and i wasn't touched...except in my hands...but that doesn't count...and so...we watch this moving and these people where outside...just wrecking this guys house...we went out there and yelled at them...but the drove away...so the we were playing football and we play in a parking lot...and we always get kicked off...so we were playing and me and mike see him turn into the parking lot and we just jet...we were gone...so...we change really quick and walk outside...and the security guard is parked right out front...so we walk by him and he doesn't say anything...and we wait till he leaves and play again...so thats my day...i think one of my Best Days...No More GHETTO day...(inside joke)...

current mood: happy

Today was another great day...so thats 3 great days in a row...and today started off great...first period...God she's soo hott...anyways most control myself...2nd...BORING!!! Physics review...totally boring...3rd was great...cuz yesterday i punked this kid who thought he was all hard...I burst his bubble...And...4th boring...english...AKA nap time...5th....AKA 2nd nap...6th was great but MICHELLE almost blew it for me...she started talking about her...and like shes right there...dur michelle...anyways i need to get back to my homework...latez peeps

current mood: I Love This Feeling

Yesterday...was a weird day...my friend was going to the mall with this chick..that he likes...and he wanted me to go with...Guy thing...he told me to ask somebody to go...and i just said that i'll go see this chick that i like who should be working...and for the rest of the day was weird. Today first period was a blast Mr. Burgess Rocks!! 2nd came and at the end of it i was talking to this girl and i told her that i was going to the mall and that i was going to go see this girl...well i really like this girl and later on i really started to fall for her...so on saturday or friday...im going to her work with flowers and asking her to winter formal....so wish me luck....

current mood: Great

When i woke up this morning...i couldn't look at myself in the mirror...a shadow that lurks behind me...keeps me cautious...and my fate keeps my feet moving...if i was to stumble and lose my way...i would forever be lost in the dark...i'll stay on my path...but will eventually lose my way...and you taking my hand can guide me back...i love you Lord and i keep you close to my heart...and remember whenever i need you, you'll be right there...to save me from him...

current mood: creative

I might of said too much...and maybe not enough...im stuck in between two wonderful girls...im head over heels for both of them...and im so confused...plus  im upset at myself...i wish i could find someone for me...but i can't pick any of them now...because of my situation...i need to get rid of these feelings...before someone else gets hurts...so if you know who you are this is for you...im going to get rid of my feelings before its to late...

current mood: lonely

When i close my eyes i paint a portrait of your gorgeous face...your bright sparkling eyes...and i wish i could keep my eyes shut for a liftime...so i never forget the smile on your face...that fills my heart with joy...the piercing pain in my heart...when we're not together...and we never will...and so i except the fact that i will spend my time dreaming and wishing...that someday...i'll get the chance to tell you "i love you"...             

current mood: undecided

If i could tell you how i felt it would take me years.....but i sit here in my tears wishing i could be with you....it drives me crazy thinking about you....
because i know that we will never be....im all alone....and soo cold....but i was told to lie in my grave....for the day that i wish for to arrive....that will never come....so i lie here waiting patiently....being careful of jealousy....that drives me crazy....you don't know what you mean to me....and i was a fool to let you go....maybe i'll awake from this slumber....and remember what it feels like to be loved....

current mood: depressed