Where Does The Time Go?

Long Time..No Update...

2005-01-17T22:29:11Z

Hey Guys sorry thats its been so long since i've updated my journal...well here it is...I been grounded, for ditching school...i've had relationship trouble...My ex, um she had another guy in her room...yeah so was done with her...I got a letter from Whittier College, and i think im going to attend there and play football for them...and i couldn't be any happier, i lied yes i can, I am currently dating Tiffany Slagle...and if you know Selina, and hows she's dating Jon, its his Cuzin. Weird huh? But im currently grounded for coming home at 1:00am...Yeah mom wasn't to happy about that...but I hope all of you are staying outa trouble, and staying safe...well i'll talk to you guys later...

My Life Is Suddenly Turning Around....

2004-12-11T19:24:21Z

So yesterday was kinda boring to start with...I mean school and all...But after school I played football for like 3 hours...And I ran from a security guard...(long story i'll tell later)...And later that night i was suppose to go hang out at my friends house...Well he was still at the mall and my boy John ask me if I wanted to go to the Steel Canyon game...So we went...and it me, Jonh and Daniel...and three chicks... well we went into the game it was like 2 quarter...and one of the girls friends start asking me all these questions...and then they told me that i have to go to the SCHS vs. WHHS soccer game...because she'd be playing...and i was wearing my vb sweatshirt...and my numbers on it...and they were like i think shes number 10...and i showed them my number...and they were shocked...so me and daniel go outside cuz it was roasting in the gym...we comeback to get money...from John...and he says he'll go with us...and he's like "she thinks your hott..." "she wants you to talk to her..."...and i was like wow...and so we go back in and some butts took our seats...and we had to finish watching the game...and when we were leaving...John's like "she wants you to make the first move..."...(heres where it gets weird)...i'm like "would mind if i could get your number..." amd she gives it to me...(and here's where i looked like a dumb ass)...im like "it was nice to meet you"...and SHOOK HER HAND...what is that...so as were walking away i run back and give her a hugg...then i go home and go to my friends house...well you know the rules...first one to fall alseep gets messed with...well i was the first one out...i was out around 11:50pm...but non of them knew it cuz i was hiddin...and so tylers the next out and he wakes up...and then Jon's asleep...we put the "cheese in can" all over his hair...and the tyler got it in his..Grant got it on his sweatshirt...and Chris got it in his face...and i wasn't touched...except in my hands...but that doesn't count...and so...we watch this moving and these people where outside...just wrecking this guys house...we went out there and yelled at them...but the drove away...so the we were playing football and we play in a parking lot...and we always get kicked off...so we were playing and me and mike see him turn into the parking lot and we just jet...we were gone...so...we change really quick and walk outside...and the security guard is parked right out front...so we walk by him and he doesn't say anything...and we wait till he leaves and play again...so thats my day...i think one of my Best Days...No More GHETTO day...(inside joke)...

Hey....Hey....

2004-12-09T00:50:34Z

Today was another great day...so thats 3 great days in a row...and today started off great...first period...God she's soo hott...anyways most control myself...2nd...BORING!!! Physics review...totally boring...3rd was great...cuz yesterday i punked this kid who thought he was all hard...I burst his bubble...And...4th boring...english...AKA nap time...5th....AKA 2nd nap...6th was great but MICHELLE almost blew it for me...she started talking about her...and like shes right there...dur michelle...anyways i need to get back to my homework...latez peeps

whhs_vballplaya @ 2004-12-07T21:13:00

2004-12-08T05:22:57Z

Yesterday...was a weird day...my friend was going to the mall with this chick..that he likes...and he wanted me to go with...Guy thing...he told me to ask somebody to go...and i just said that i'll go see this chick that i like who should be working...and for the rest of the day was weird. Today first period was a blast Mr. Burgess Rocks!! 2nd came and at the end of it i was talking to this girl and i told her that i was going to the mall and that i was going to go see this girl...well i really like this girl and later on i really started to fall for her...so on saturday or friday...im going to her work with flowers and asking her to winter formal....so wish me luck....

What If I Told You I Loved You?

2004-12-04T03:06:24Z

When i woke up this morning...i couldn't look at myself in the mirror...a shadow that lurks behind me...keeps me cautious...and my fate keeps my feet moving...if i was to stumble and lose my way...i would forever be lost in the dark...i'll stay on my path...but will eventually lose my way...and you taking my hand can guide me back...i love you Lord and i keep you close to my heart...and remember whenever i need you, you'll be right there...to save me from him...

Lost And Forgot My Compass.....

2004-12-02T01:00:51Z

I might of said too much...and maybe not enough...im stuck in between two wonderful girls...im head over heels for both of them...and im so confused...plus im upset at myself...i wish i could find someone for me...but i can't pick any of them now...because of my situation...i need to get rid of these feelings...before someone else gets hurts...so if you know who you are this is for you...im going to get rid of my feelings before its to late...

whhs_vballplaya @ 2004-11-30T20:09:00

2004-12-01T04:14:09Z

When i close my eyes i paint a portrait of your gorgeous face...your bright sparkling eyes...and i wish i could keep my eyes shut for a liftime...so i never forget the smile on your face...that fills my heart with joy...the piercing pain in my heart...when we're not together...and we never will...and so i except the fact that i will spend my time dreaming and wishing...that someday...i'll get the chance to tell you "i love you"...

Where Do The Broken Hearted Lie...To... Die???

2004-11-30T03:54:57Z

If i could tell you how i felt it would take me years.....but i sit here in my tears wishing i could be with you....it drives me crazy thinking about you....
because i know that we will never be....im all alone....and soo cold....but i was told to lie in my grave....for the day that i wish for to arrive....that will never come....so i lie here waiting patiently....being careful of jealousy....that drives me crazy....you don't know what you mean to me....and i was a fool to let you go....maybe i'll awake from this slumber....and remember what it feels like to be loved....

Watch Out Philip Staiback Cuz Here I Come.....

2004-11-18T03:09:27Z

Today i played football and Rey Sardene is like my number 1 reciever....and well as much of you know I play QB and i love it...but i don't play for West Hills....and so today i had a big day....10/12-83%pass comp. 9 tds and 1 int...so next year im playing cuz everyone say that im really good and that i should play....so im goin to....so watch out west hills....next year its my turn....

Lock In A Dark Room With No Windows And No Doors......

2004-11-09T02:34:37Z

There's a saying "what goes up must come down" I was up and hit the ground hard. My life is going no where....and i wish i could love someone the way i want to be loved.....Life is hard and your suppose to look to your friends for support....don't got any of those...just people that i know.....to hurt to love....but still looking....so all i got is my music....who can give some advice but not the greatest....can't wait till VB then i can get away from the drama....and have sports as my life.....got any suggestions....???? didn't think so....

A song for the broken Hearted by me.....

2004-11-08T06:10:19Z

Artist: Drake
Song: Sorry
Album: From The Heart / Be Heard Or Be Forgotten

Verse 1

Sorry for everything that night
Can’t stop thinking about it
So I decided to write, and admit
Didn’t really have same feelings,
Sorry for all these things
Sorry for not telling you how I felt
Like flying out the window
Not wearing my seat belt
Hitting the ground so hard
Can’t believe that I hurt you
Your so wonderful, so saw right trough
Finding out who I am, failed your exam

Chorus

Sorry…Sorry…I’m so Sorry
Sorry for not being the one
I’ve gotta live with what I’ve done
Messed up and now your gone
Sorry I don’t feel the same
Now I lie in shame, I’m the one to blame
Sorry for all every single drop tear

Verse 2

Wanted to be the one to take away your fears
Then I suddenly lost my way to your heart
Your beautiful, honest, nice, and smart
You can find someone better than me
Someone who’s not blinded and can see
Don’t wanna hold you down now go be free
Fly away from me and find your love
I want you to be free of, hate, fear, sadness
The one your with will be bless
You’re a great person, and I’m sorry

Crushed into pieces

2004-09-04T17:36:01Z

Yesterday has have to be the worst day ever......My classes are crappy.....my friends hate me......and to top it off this girl that i had a huge crush on.......is gone......i don't know what to do anymore....when i found out that she saw my friend on my lap (just friend) becuz of her skirt.....and that she thought i was making out with her.......i ran as fast as i could to tell her......and i think i was a little to late.....it seemed as if she already made up her mind....i can't take it anymore.....i can't keep getting hurt becuz ppl don't understand or judge me......I just wanna sit in my corner and cry becuz theres nothing else to do.....i need some advice.....

Dedication to one that I lost.

2004-08-15T21:35:36Z

______________________________________________________________________ AUGUST 23th 2004 Today, was the first day of my 11 grade year. I couldn't find the person that I really wanted to talk to. I actually ran into the biggest bitch I've ever met.(Axie Croft)Anywayz, I like this young lady, but I feel as if she doesn't feel the same way. You know what I mean. I hope that there can be something there but I don't know I'm not the one that has to make that decision. But anywayz, today was the most crappest day I have ever had. I found out that me Second Mama passed away. (not really my second mom, it just felt that way) I can't stop think how her 14yr old son and husband feel right now. Especially because I hurt so much. So right now im gonna dedicate this entry to my second mommy, JOJO. Jo Jo your in our hearts now and forever, You were like my second mom. I will miss you forever. Hopefully these tears will stop and i can start to remember all the good and fun times that you shared with me and my family. We miss you. With all the love in the world. Ryan Well thats about it. ______________________________________________________________________ AUGUST 29th, 2004 Well this weekend has been very interesting. I had a long conversation, with this special someone. Then saturday, me and my friends; Tyler, and Jason played BUTTS UP in my backyard, yeah i lost. (It Hurt). Later on I helped Tyler babysit his lil bro and sis. And we leave to blockbuster (3 MILES AWAY) to get a movie that his lil bro wants to see. (Girl Next Door Unrated) So me and tyler take turns on the bike, one on pegs the other petalling for 3 miles. On the way there we get to see the end of a police chase. On carliton and mast. And on the way back we see this guy drive by, and do a U turn and looks for a fight with us. Sunday, chilled with jason, went swimming. (not as fun as it was with Zayda) We played 1 on 1 football. I won. Later on I ran as fast as i can to a persons house that i don't even know. (found out who's house it was once i got there) But i ran as fast as i could with jason by my side. Because we saw the begings of a house fire. Luckly everyone was out of the house once we got there. I would of help put out the fire only i saw that the power lines were cut so i didn't walk across the street with water. (Common Sense)But thats been my weekend. ______________________________________________________________________ AUGUST 30th, 2004 Well today was the first day of the second week of school…….BORING!!!!!!! I was transferred to Mr. Burgesses class, man is he funny. I am watching Chris Rock-Never scared he is so funny. He’s one of my fav. Comedians. Well at the beginning of school I ran into someone who I haven’t talk to in a long time…..this morning I tried to say hi to someone but she kinda blew me off……(tear)………but anywayz I hope that tomorrow will be better.